It took me a while to figure out what to write. English not being my first language, I fear that a lot of my emotions will find shortage of words. Then there is grammar in every language, particularly in English that drives me crazy. Still I will give it a shot. My life has been more of a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes I wonder how I even made it this far. I won’t deny the number of time I have thought of the least painful way of killing myself. Horrible for anyone to even consider it. But believe me, sometimes thinking about it gives you the reason to live, as you run out of ways to kill yourself or probably you realise that you have not really given up on life. You too have miles to go before you sleep.